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Argh.Tiba juga hari ni.1st september.
No.I'm not talking about the fasting-month here.I'm just complaining about the day I had to get my ass back to the student-life.
Alhamdulillah.Me and cintahati berjaya buat makan kecil2an untuk those yang tak dapat balik kenduri hari tu.Tapi not many were invited because of few reasons.Oh yes.Thankyou for the extrapower-help lended by L and Frz.L and Frz bermalam kat rumah for 2nights.Huh.Thank god.At least with that aku dapat warm-up tak tidur with cintahati.

Actually,aku dah start rasa sedih nak kena balik my university since forever.
Heh.Tipulah kan.
Since kami balik Japan on 14thAugust hari tu actually.But everytime aku terfikir pasal research, aku akan try buat something else.Something than can distract aku from that sedih feeling.
Kenapa nak sedih pun aku tak tahu.Bukannya dah tak jumpa lagi(InsyaAllah kalau umur panjang).This was the same feeling masa aku kena bye2 mama and papa 1st day kat asrama dulu.Deym!It's hard ok?

Like cintahati said semalam.'Masa akan terus berlalu.'
Yeah.Aku tahu.Mana ada butang pause and fastforward.

Kat uni, aku duduk rumah sorang.Other Mlysians pun rumah sepah2.Jauh from eachother.So, bila balik sini aku rasa macam sunyi.Lain lah macam masa kat technical college dulu.Aku ada housemates.So, bila sunyi aku boleh merempat bilik L or E. Aku boleh menangis tanpa sebab macam orang gila dekat L or E .Tapi not anymore.I have no housemates. Worse, I have no-one to cry to. Shitto!

Oh.
I missed kelamkabut masak air buat nescafe at 7am
I missed kelamkabut prepare/re-heat lunch at 1145am
I missed kelamkabut prepare minum petang at 445pm
I missed kelamkabut prepare dinner at 7pm
And I missed kelamkabut kemasrumah at allthetime:)

I missed the solat jemaah.
I missed the tazkirah after solat.
I missed the 'berdamai' shakehand after saling kutuk2 and gelakkan eachother.
Sigh~

My 6th Ramadhan in Jpn.Is it?
But clearly my 1st Ramdhan as a wifey walaupun tak dapat nak sahur,buka puasa,tarawikh sama2.
Sorry babe:(
Raya pulak maybe jatuh on Wed.Cintahati is working and sudah tentu lah aku pun tak cuti.
So I haven't plan my next visit to cintahati's but aku tahu bukan dalam jangkamasa yang terdekat.I need to adapt with the loneliness,I guess.


Till then,bye!Pray for me.Pray for us.
Selamat berpuasa.
Ya Allah.Beri lah kekuatan kepada kami.

~Walaupun berjauhan,hati tetap bersama *love*~